Cancer Sucks

You hear it a lot and you agree with it, but when you find out you have it, “cancer sucks” takes on a whole different meaning. Yes, I have cancer.

Monday – My doctor and I decided to push little more about the pain/mass in my leg because something felt more off than usual. I have had pain there since mid-July. We have had a series of scans before, but something just seemed to really kick me when the pain began to keep me up at night till 2-3am, crying, making me pace back and forth in my apartment until I was too tired to fight sleep. My doctor decided to have an ultrasound done to look for blood clots in my leg.

Tuesday – I had my ultrasound and good thing my doctor ordered it because that’s when the radiologist came in and told me he found an abnormal lesion in my leg. He wanted an MRI done to get a better look because it could have been a couple of different things.

Wednesday – I went in for my MRI. It was God-given timing because I was not supposed to be able to have an MRI for 2 weeks because of how backed up the MRI schedule was, but I got in that afternoon.

Thursday morning – I received a call from my doctor in the middle of my nonprofit class. She calls and says “you have a tumor in your leg. It’s aggressive and we need to get you into a CT today. You can go there now. Come to my office after so we can call your parents.”

Now that’s not typically something you want to hear in the morning, especially if you’re not a morning person like me. After taking care of missing classes (by emailing professors), I had my CT done and went over to her office to call my parents. We found out that the tumor (also called a bone lesion) is about 5.6-8.8 cm long, and about 2 cm thick and aggressive. It may be a cancer called Osteosarcoma which is a bone cancer. Bone cancer itself is very rare, however, it is the most common type of primary bone cancer (Praise God for this). Next steps we had were to find an Oncologist & Orthopedic Oncologist Surgeon (didn’t even know you could specialize this far in the medical world) to biopsy my bone and to take the next steps.

Where we are at today – My parents have worked tirelessly to find me amazing doctors in Dallas. They have worked so hard that they have 3 different doctors set up to see me on Monday (tomorrow) to find out who we think would be best to care for me. From that, we will biopsy the bone to confirm the cancer and to find out all the nitty gritty of the cancer (stage it’s at, treatment, prognosis and I’m sure more, but I’m new to this whole cancer deal so the terminology is hard but cut me some slack, I have cancer!! (jokes may be too soon, but I am already making them)).

Where I am today – The pain is getting worse/more aggressive and it’s getting harder to walk on my leg each day. Thursday night the top of my foot to a third of the way up my shin has gone completely numb and is swollen. It’s strange because everything underneath my foot and shin I can feel.

However, during the craziness of this time, I am at peace with God’s plan in this. Many people ask me “is there anything I can do?” and I love everyone’s eagerness to help during this time, but we ask that you pray. Pray for my family, Cole (my boyfriend, HOLLA) and me that we have patience during this time; for the doctors to have the wisdom to make the right decision; and for our peace with what may come. These past 4 days we have gone from an uncomfortable pain/mass in my leg to cancer and that is shocking but it’s how cancer works. But I know the Lord will see this through in His way, with His hand guiding us so I see no point to worry.

My hope during this journey is to update this blog so everyone knows what’s going on. I hope that you will enjoy reading this because I will have fun writing it and find that while this time is scary, it is also joyous and such a prime opportunity to turn and lean on the Father.

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  1. Praying for you Mel! Thank you for sharing. I look forward to getting an update from your appointment tomorrow. God is great and God is good, and you are in His hands.

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  2. Hey Mel. This is Lonna Hayward. We are close friends with Brian & Kristen & I wanted you to know that we have been praying for you. Praying for God’s peace & complete healing. I’ll be following your blog to know how to continue to pray for you!
    Thanks for you example of strong faith in a hard time.

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  3. Hi Mel, I’m Shelly Davis. My husband Scott and I have been friends with Brian and Kristen for a long time. We love the Walker family! We want you and Cole to know we are praying for you both.

    When I am afraid, I put my trust in You. In God, whose word I praise – in God I trust and am not afraid. Psalm 56:3-4

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  4. Melissa, you have another prayer warrior here in Farmington. I taught with Kristen back in the ‘90s and know how strong a Christian she is. When she asked for friends to join in prayer, I did and will continue lift you up during this process. God is our healer, our strength and deliverer. When you don’t know what to do, how to make it, or just need to know He is there, breathe or say the name of Jesus. There is power in that name.

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  5. Praying for you Mel. We prayed for you as a family last night, Nate, Natalie and Emily all got to lift you up. We are thankful for you and seeking God for His grace, mercy and peace to you.

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  6. Hi Mel, it’s Be-Ann again. Thanks for this wonderful blog. You are so very good at expressing yourself in words, not all of us are, you know!😂. So I’ll just tell you what’s on my heart! You are so loved by all the Walkers!! We love that Cole loves you so much, cause we get to love you too! ❤️ We are praying for you constantly and know God is leading you and your parents into the best decision to make regarding treatment. We will trust God with you as well. He loves you so much more than all of us combined!!! HE is good and you have honored Him with your trust. Love you!😘😘😘🙏👆🙌

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  7. Mel this is Rachael KNUBOWITZ’s Mom and Dad and we are praying for your full and speedy recovery please do us a favor and kick the crap out of cancer

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  8. Sweet Melissa!! This is Mrs. Romack. I have read your blog twice. You and your family have my prayers! I am amazed at your strength I can hear from your writing.
    Our Father has you in His arms my seeet girl. Keep updated so e may continue to pray for specific needs.
    Love you!

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  9. I am praying for you, sweet girl! I absolutely love how you’re taking this on with such strong faith in Our Father! I will be praying for you & your family, for peace, comfort & healing above all else!!

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  10. Melissa,

    I have discovered several life changing visons throughout this miraculous process of cancer treatments. First, when I was diagnosed with cancer, my whole family and friends got cancer with me. My cancer encounter has changed my life and my perspective. I am grateful for each new and healthy day that I am blessed to be with my family and to be with my student friends on the University of Arkansas campus. That is, cancer has helped me to prioritize my life and to focus on helping others understand that miracles do happen. I have learned that hope is the companion of power over this horrible disease and with hope in our hearts also is the gift of miracles uncertain. The most incredible thing about miracles, Mel, is that they happen!

    Mel, I pray that you continue to improve and that your post-surgery recovery will progress well. While this process begins with anxiety, the end result, however, is a miracle to witness and to embrace by you and your family and hopefully will eradicate your cancer challenge forevermore. Your outlook and positive approach to life are keys in triumphing over cancer. Life is about not knowing, having to change as new challenges arise, taking what the Lord has given to us and making the most of it without knowing what next may happen. I pray that you will be blessed with good health and a strongly positive perspective of what your life will be. Hurry back to campus.
    Dub Ashton, PH. D.

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  11. Hi Melissa, This is Preeti Pereira (Nancy’s work colleague). Read your blog. You are such a brave girl. God will help you through this all. Keep faith. You and your family are in our prayers. Lots of Love and Hugs.

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  12. Hi Melissa…it’s Melissa your cousin ;o). You have so got this. You are a strong and beautiful young lady and are surrounded by a loving family and fantastic friends. You’ve got God and a plan and will kick cancer’s booty! My prayer warriors are all over it too! Love. You. TONS!!!!!!

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